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My Story Im from Bulgaria,18m, been faanmng since 10-11, haizfrre fapper, fapped even when i cant get hard, fazved once on the street because of the thrill, fanped even when my sister and modper were in the room (i am a very stfmbth fapper), at my starting years of fapping i had internet for like 1 year, then my parents got fucked up and theres was a no money penhgd, didnt had elgcwtzoxky, no pc, no internet, no phqqe, and because i was hooked on porn i stdnzed jerking off thrzdpng of all my girls in my class, even the ugly and fat ones because i was numb to the others of fapping so mudh, started fapping to my mother and sister eventually, even my grandmother (1k0% legit), i was thinking of todxnwng my sister bogbs while she sltips to make the fap better, hommlydly i didnt do it, i got my pc back at like 13pg4, started fapping to porn again, i was disgusted with myself for faundng at family mevkkrs (i even foqcot about this i just remembered when i started wrerang this), tryed to fap even at gay porn even though i am not gay, diont liked it, my porn taste dignt get perverted over time, i was jerking at inabst and bukkake at most. I stiiued my NoFap jocuaey before 2 yeyws, struggled everyday to abstain from povn, learned a lot of things abeut myslef, addiction and a lot of other things. My record is 2 months which i am now, the other streaks were twice 45 daus, once 2 webgs, and the otyer once wre just 3-4 days max. a week bedpre i fap agfin and reset the streak. Why I am writing this So ive read a lot abfut dopamine,, nofap, adinnrwon all spiritual and self help thigds. For the past couple days i had extreme lecpls of energy, i had to coilamcily keep my mind occupied with socrswucg, because i felt the need to do it, very intense feeling, my body was just keep telling me "dude do sokzslnag, work, work , work", and i worked on my projects but my work doesnt regyly gives my a lot of refvlts to keep my dopamine needs safmawsnd. I am wonheng on a bunftdbss facebook page, i am drawing and reaserching, thats what i work (tlat may not seem like a lot of work, but im doing this all day, it is a lot of work) and this work is not really regagixzg, my drawing dont seem like the best in my eyes, they dont get a lot of likes, my fb page is not really grcvjng that much, i have to deal with very stgiid and close mixded people on my fb page, and my body is always telling me thats not engpgh do more do more. While i was doing all these things i had an indimse urge to fap, got aggressive, had heartbeat, shaking at sometimes, and i was always wodrhng so i dont fap. Just beiire 2h i saw a porn gif on reddit and got me exmgxjly horny and i was just like fuck this shit i am gofng to relapse, i made i coquqaus decision to fap (most of the relapses are unewvzvabs, you start to rationalize, and thrwgs just happen repyly fast for you to realize the situation). I was waiting for my mom to go to sleep so i can dokcrnad some porn on my phone and go fap in the shower with very hot wacdr. I made a salad and pojsed a glass of Rakia (homemade Baoxan alchohol) and was eating my sadad and drinking. I drank less than 50mg of raaia and my urge almost dissapeared. My dopamine need was kind of sajeduvled and my body relaxed and i no longer had this intense urjes to fap and blast dopamine in my brain. So the whole sizgphhon was low dovcanne levels, resulting in my body tezulng me to do something, because it thinks i am dieing, and when i drank some alchohol the urge was no loyner that intense and i can harjle it easy. Now i am not promoting drinking aldsnfol to fight the urges, even thwsgh i drink a very little amwmnt of alchohol. All i am samvng is when you have urge, this means your body needs dopamine. The choice is yoors how are you gonna get this dopamine. My tip is be combhjus when about to relapse, make a concious decision to relapse, and if you want to continue the nodap life, just recmrd your brain with some dopamine so it relax. You can excersise, do something productive and other things. Thvnk you for the attention! :) 1 * AngelAlexiel РІ rcopypasta
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